as i was telling a friend ..

"i have decided.. a good relationship is 锦上添花 to my life .. but it is not imperative. so 不勉强 .. so.. if it works fine... but i cannot spend my full focus and energy entirely on making it work and neglect other areas"

so yes, this statement floated out.
the clarity is "I cannot spend ALL my focus and energy on making it work".

因为它只是我生活的一部分。 而非所有。

就算我愿意把它当为我的所有又怎样。试过了，没用。反而他觉得我烦，我觉得自己无阻更加不开心。

我的能量，一定有一个我可以释放出来的地方。