giving permission
就算没大吵，还是有点想放手。是一时的情绪，还是更深的动力？说真的，不知道。不过很明显的不同就是以前我绝对不会考虑放弃，而是相信making things work. 现在反而不再是宗旨了。放弃是选择之一了。不代表不再努力了。还是会。不过就是有那么的一点不一样了。
立场不一样了。
就算再尝试再努力，因为心里知道放弃永远是他的选择之一，它也成为了我永远的选择之一了。Everyone has the right and option to say out. Why should I be so silly to deny myself that option even if it clashes with my ideal of making things work? Ideals are one thing. A relationship is not about one singular person's ideal in the real world. So now I accept this. Even tho I never did accepted this for JL and the first 12 months with Mr See. But now I do.
And for better or worse, I gave myself the permission to have the choice to say 'I want out', if it is needed.
立场不一样了。
就算再尝试再努力，因为心里知道放弃永远是他的选择之一，它也成为了我永远的选择之一了。Everyone has the right and option to say out. Why should I be so silly to deny myself that option even if it clashes with my ideal of making things work? Ideals are one thing. A relationship is not about one singular person's ideal in the real world. So now I accept this. Even tho I never did accepted this for JL and the first 12 months with Mr See. But now I do.
And for better or worse, I gave myself the permission to have the choice to say 'I want out', if it is needed.
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