Sunday, January 08, 2012

面对2012的喃喃自语

- granted that life's day-in-day-out routine can reduce one's consciousness to that of a water buffalo plowing the field, i do wonder about the meaning of life. Then i realised the folly of my attempt in trying to figure out the general meaning of life. Perhaps there is no “general” meaning to anyone's life, but what you want to do with it. Life is certainly not going to stop me if i intend to continue as a water buffalo, if that is all the context i am capable of. Just as I have been watching the wrong credit card, i probably have been asking the wrong question as well. The question is not “what is the meaning & purpose of life”, but “what is the meaning and purpose of MY life”.

- Having said that, i like the purpose of my life to be something that i choose consciously, instead of something i drifted into without thinking, then trying to make the best out of my non-choice. Say, for example, I hope to have the luxury of saying the purpose of my life is to be a great mother *for example*, rather than muddling through the bulk of my life, then trying to justify it by using motherhood as an excuse when i was really just being a water buffalo. You know what I am saying?

- Asking the right questions. Having your eye on the right goal. Knowing what really matters. It makes a hell of difference. Really. In moments of feeling utterly helpless and useless and defeated, i.must.remember.this.

- Other than the meaning of life, i have struggled with the concept of happiness. 快乐. 但开心不是快乐。说天天开心,我还没那么懊恼。要天天快乐,我还真得拉张椅子坐下来慢慢想。

- 我还没能做到天天快乐,我的修道没那么高。But what i should and will try to work on is capacity, 量. All sorts of capacity. Money, time, emotions, physical health, mental. 是的,虽然做人要量力而为,但量这玩意不是死的,是活的,不是吗?

- 太多太多事,是相对的,而不是绝对的。Relativity, folks. 能欣赏这个道理吗?

- 人生中最大的乐趣就是做别人说你不能做的事,做到别人认为你做不到的事。你奈我何?

- 还是那句,我希望我的每一个改变都是一种蜕变。该改的改,只怕我不肯改。

- 冷眼审视没什么不好啊。等我愤怒还是激情过后,记得冷眼审视。