so be it
i would also get tired of dealing with you; tired of you insisting that "i dun get it", while i wonder if you got my point either; tired of you getting emotional and behaving badly; tired of hearing you speak to me with disdain; tired of watching you never stepping up and sharing the responsibility that when things go wrong, when we have fights, we both share the blame. But you never buy such an argument.
Can't remember when was the one time you agree you were wrong, or rather, even if you were at fault, i dun recall an apology. a verbal apology would go so much further for me, if only you knew.
even great relationships will have periods when it does not last or go well. i'm just not sure now what is ours. if we both work hard, why still like that?
discouraged? yes, at least right now I am. why do i always have to do the reaching out and mending? i am the lady in the relationship. am i not? i would also like to be pampered and humored once a while.
and i think: i am worth much more than what you would ever know. because i dun think you really know.
excuse me now, i think i need to retreat. into my own world. further away. i need to remind myself. a good sustainable r/s is the icing on the cake. it is not everything, and it certainly is not my life. a cake without icing is still worth it.
if you want to simmer, you want to mope. i guess go ahead. let me know when you are done. i pick my fights, and today, you are not one of them anymore. i can't move the r/s forward anyway with you moping and being bitter right now. my efforts will only be rebuffed, like today. does it not occur to you i would be hurt and disappointed by your words and attitude as well. but you only seem to be concerned about your "disappointments" with me.
so be it, i guess.
since you always say you need time to get over things, what else can I say or do then. So be it.
the underlying reason for this "so be it" mentality now?
I have choices in life, don't I? I choose to be happy. Be it on my own, with you, or even with a sulking you.
Can't remember when was the one time you agree you were wrong, or rather, even if you were at fault, i dun recall an apology. a verbal apology would go so much further for me, if only you knew.
even great relationships will have periods when it does not last or go well. i'm just not sure now what is ours. if we both work hard, why still like that?
discouraged? yes, at least right now I am. why do i always have to do the reaching out and mending? i am the lady in the relationship. am i not? i would also like to be pampered and humored once a while.
and i think: i am worth much more than what you would ever know. because i dun think you really know.
excuse me now, i think i need to retreat. into my own world. further away. i need to remind myself. a good sustainable r/s is the icing on the cake. it is not everything, and it certainly is not my life. a cake without icing is still worth it.
if you want to simmer, you want to mope. i guess go ahead. let me know when you are done. i pick my fights, and today, you are not one of them anymore. i can't move the r/s forward anyway with you moping and being bitter right now. my efforts will only be rebuffed, like today. does it not occur to you i would be hurt and disappointed by your words and attitude as well. but you only seem to be concerned about your "disappointments" with me.
so be it, i guess.
since you always say you need time to get over things, what else can I say or do then. So be it.
the underlying reason for this "so be it" mentality now?
I have choices in life, don't I? I choose to be happy. Be it on my own, with you, or even with a sulking you.
