自问

似乎
我就是这样
表面上越好
一切越顺利
我就越怀疑

有一种不安
是一种不安
有时，会让我很讨厌身边的一切
就算曾几何时
它真的很完美

原来
完美也是万变的

又怎样

是心情吗？还是疲惫了？
真的觉得世界少了我，真的无所谓。
有时，很努力，想过每一天。
却不知道到底是为了什么。
无奈。
我知道有明天，又怎样？

有人能告诉我吗？
是有明天，那又怎样？

是无奈中找到一点共鸣吗？
在我的 '又怎样' 中，有点莫名的安慰

希望只是一个阶段
我不喜欢这样，又不得不承认
最近的主题曲是《另一张脸》

... 陷在又冷又黑的悲观里
就像出现另一张脸
看着这张陌生的脸
自己都讨厌
觉得心情起伏不定
没有人了解

觉得孤独
想大声哭
觉得活得累
觉得一切一切
全都虚伪 ...

明天，又是无奈
不明白，累人，瞎搞的一天

情人节

情人节快乐。

1. 今早朋友短讯来，说"Happy Friendship Day". 我傻了眼，什么 friendship day? 我都忘了，情人节也是友谊日。似乎是18岁时才记住的节日。又或许是我越来越没有心思了，也懒得管这些了。

2. 似乎对我今天的节目有点好奇的人不少。“美女配佳人。今晚谁做伴？” 我看了想大笑。美女？他们还没看过我在家像鬼的样子。有情人就过情人节，没情人，我过日子。就这么简单。礼拜二，上课。咳，平时和谁吃饭都可以，就今天万万不可随便和别人吃饭。尤其是男人。

3. 是不是年级大了的问题？我现在比较在乎的是明天的股市。是一个人还是一对，要紧吗？

4. 现在认真做下来写这些，发现自己最大的愿望就是有情人的情人， 一定要过个开心的情人节。在我模糊的记忆里，我仿佛记得在情人节吵架是很伤感情的一件事。小时不懂事，现在明白有些事，会 因为某些日子而不必要的放大。没必要，也不值得。

win everyday

how do you be more productive everyday? Or rather, how do you make the best out of your everyday?

I have a phase on my board that says "What I do today is important because I will never have today again." Many ways to waste a day .. many ways to make the best from it.

You know, I have no obligations of any sort in any form. The days of scoring As and getting a degree are way behind me. Work only becomes a numbing chore and a way of survival in the manner of money. It is common knowledge that we tend to do less, rather than more, when we have no obligations. I suppose it is something inherent in our human DNA. Hell, who is immune to laziness.

I am guilty of it everyday. Even so, I am very conscious of the reality that I am ageing by the second and time does run out. Eventually.

There are 1001 tasks and things that I can do, that are waiting for me to do. I should really strive. 1 small task completed a day could make the difference between wasting the day and winning it.

Win everyday.

It has a nice ring to it ... maybe that would work better than planning on a weekly basis.